I’ve been up and down, and back and forth. In my head for days. Even though now, I get what my problem was. I can’t sleep at times. I’m still adjusting. And honestly, I don’t know what you want, and not talking about it doesn’t help.
Are you trying to adjust like I am? Does this hurt you? Are you testing my patience, with this time and space and silence? Do you even care?
I hope you do. But then, I hope for lots of things. Anyways. To the point.
I’ve come to realize, a lot of what’s in my head doesn’t matter. What you think or do, in your head or by yourself or with whoever, it really isn’t my business anymore. Maybe it never really was. It’s confusing to think about. But it doesn’t matter. I’ve made my choices, and left a lot of this in your hands.
So I just have to be me for once, completely me, and what happens will happen. I still miss you, and want to talk to you. And I still hope. I’ve just got to stop looking back and keep my focus forward.
And you’ll probably never read this, I doubt you still check up on me like you used to. But if you do, just know I’m not mad. I don’t want a confrontation or to argue, that’d be useless. I just want to start over. I’ve just always had problems letting go. And I’m trying my best, and trying to be patient. And that I’m okay. I hope you’re okay too.
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The new Linkin Park single, Guilty All The Same. Spread it like wildfire.
- Always say yes to seeing friends
- Eat breakfast every day
- Recognize that positive change rarely happens overnight
- Accept the fuck-ups, but try not to let them happen again
- There is a song to remedy every situation on the planet
- Appreciate the people in your life
- Look for the good in everything
- Try new things and try them often
- Treat yourself as well as you treat others